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I wouldn't call that interesting. But I'm also hopeful we're coming toward the end of this. And I'm hopeful for the future, too.
... You know, you've seemed a fair bit less hopeful of late than you were at the start.
Granted, I can't say I blame you.
Granted, I can't say I blame you.
[ He pauses at that comment, thinking about how best to answer it. He takes in a slow breath before exhaling. ]
These last days have helped to ground me again. I know it seemed like I was losing my footing and sight on things. But I've realized things over the last few days that's actually made me firm up on my resolution.
I've seen too many people around me that have looked so lost lately and I don't want this place to break anyone. I can't let myself be brought down, either. When this is all over, I can face whatever scars this place has left on me, but now is not the time for that. Now is the time when we need to keep hope the most.
I truly believe that. They say it's always darkest right before dawn. So, I'm holding out for that.
These last days have helped to ground me again. I know it seemed like I was losing my footing and sight on things. But I've realized things over the last few days that's actually made me firm up on my resolution.
I've seen too many people around me that have looked so lost lately and I don't want this place to break anyone. I can't let myself be brought down, either. When this is all over, I can face whatever scars this place has left on me, but now is not the time for that. Now is the time when we need to keep hope the most.
I truly believe that. They say it's always darkest right before dawn. So, I'm holding out for that.
[He chuckles.]
You know, I don't tend to find myself in agreement with you heroic types and your powers of friendship and hope often, but that's definitely an outlook that the angels aren't prepared to combat.
I've met monsters like this before. They're certainly creative with their torture, but it helps to remember how feeble they must be to resort to any of this. The fact of the matter? By and large, we're stronger than them.
You know, I don't tend to find myself in agreement with you heroic types and your powers of friendship and hope often, but that's definitely an outlook that the angels aren't prepared to combat.
I've met monsters like this before. They're certainly creative with their torture, but it helps to remember how feeble they must be to resort to any of this. The fact of the matter? By and large, we're stronger than them.
They're obviously trying to break our spirits down with the method of how they're doing things. The only way to combat that is to not let them.
Let's hope we can rally enough to stand against this.
Let's hope we can rally enough to stand against this.
[ Once again, he's coming to visit the person in the prison... He slowly approaches the holding cell. ]
Mind if we talk a little?
Mind if we talk a little?
I'd say make yourself at home, but I don't think you'd wanna live here.
[He smiles.]
What can I do for you, in my immobile state?
[He smiles.]
What can I do for you, in my immobile state?
I don't think anyone would want to.
[ He sighs, feeling bad for Spike even being there. ]
Were you also under the angel's influence or... was that something else?
[ He sighs, feeling bad for Spike even being there. ]
Were you also under the angel's influence or... was that something else?
Well, they reached out to me so I might as well have been.
There's no point in fighting them, is there? Not when they've got you by the throat like that. I already knew that. At least I kept my mind.
[He shrugs.]
There's no point in fighting them, is there? Not when they've got you by the throat like that. I already knew that. At least I kept my mind.
[He shrugs.]
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Maybe not right this moment, but there will be. I'm not about to stop believing that. What we've talked about. [ But a pause. ] What do you mean you kept your mind?
It was the last trial. I wish it had been sooner so this didn't have to happen.
It was the last trial. I wish it had been sooner so this didn't have to happen.
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As in, they didn't worm their way into my head and force me, 'cuz I chose not to let it get to that point. Killing's what comes naturally to me, it's the rest that's... abnormal. Much as I might wish it wasn't.
[He makes a sound that's halfway between a sigh and a scoff.]
You know, I learned that before the murder. "Congrats, you're nearly to the finish line! We're going to trip you over and put a bullet in your head before you make it, though."
It is what it is. This outcome was inevitable.
[He makes a sound that's halfway between a sigh and a scoff.]
You know, I learned that before the murder. "Congrats, you're nearly to the finish line! We're going to trip you over and put a bullet in your head before you make it, though."
It is what it is. This outcome was inevitable.
You'll still be there with us. Just not on this side, Spike. Maybe you had your mind about you, but you still had no choice.
If you were just the monster you said you were, you would have done this a long time ago.
If you were just the monster you said you were, you would have done this a long time ago.
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