I don't have...much experience in this regard, you understand. Even with Mikotoba, we...well, it was fine to just act as partners, without much affection shared in public, if at all. [A little sigh.] So I want to hear from you, yes. About what you think.
[ He squeezes his hand, looking down absently, not moving to step closer. ]
I've only had my wife before. Ours was mainly in private, too. I'm embarrassed, too. But ... I think about when we kept our distance. How I couldn't go near you... and maybe we had our reasons, trying to protect my secret, but it was actually pretty painful.
Sholmes, I... After my wife passed, I didn't have any desire to be with anyone. My heart was hers completely. And then I met you. From the start I felt very comfortable with you and we've fallen into this pattern with each other.
[ He squeezes his hand before letting go to slump down against a tree, staring a little blankly. ]
I'd do it, for you, to make you comfortable. Giving us some... space. And distance. Keeping things chaste. But it'd be like those few weeks all over again. Except all the time. I know we don't have much time left here, but there's still about two weeks.
[ He ruffles his hair a bit. ]
Sorry, this is all pretty selfish of me. Your comfort comes first. Those are my thoughts. Forget the rest of it.
[He thinks about that for a moment, before moving to sit down next to the other man. He reaches over to tuck a hair behind an ear.]
No, no. I always like hearing your thoughts, my dear. And I understand, I do. For me, that time where we were so far apart from each other was torment, truly. It was like...having you in my arms, but then having to throw that away every time I walked into public...excruciating.
[He moves his fingers to cup over the other's chin, pulling his head to look at him.]
Obviously, I don't want us to draw excessively needless attention, and certainly, there are things better left for private, but otherwise...you told me to be selfish, yes? And I want you to be selfish, too. Please.
[ He lets himself be guided back into looking at Sholmes and nods softly. ]
Of course. I don't plan on making our relationship a huge scene... despite what today went like.
Then, if you want me being honest and selfish with you, Sholmes... I don't want to stop what we've been doing. I don't even know if I could without staying away from you. I don't even understand it myself, but when I'm near you, I just want to touch you and hold you. Even in the simplest ways.
[A kiss to his cheek. He draws back, his eyes sparkling.]
I feel the same. Those magnets, again. It will...take me a bit to maybe getting used to, I think, but...I also think that things will be as natural as they ever were. That's my deduction, as a great detective. Haha.
Maybe that's the only one we officially stated to be a date, but I'm pretty sure we've had a number of them. Especially those last days in each world... [ A pause, then lets out a soft laugh. ] Maybe even back in that first world. Where we spent that night together, watching movies... Dating before we could even catch up to what was happening.
I have so many things I want to do with you, but not enough time here. Movies, music, food... There's so much to offer. I... want to also ask you for your lockpicking expertise. I found the way to the roof and I thought we could enjoy ourselves up there. A picnic between the two of us... the stars might be a little hard to see because of the city light, but that never stopped us before.
You could play your violin for me. We could read books to each other all night. Listen to each other. Listen to the city that never sleeps.
[His hand moves, fingers sliding over the other's jaw. A kiss comes, like an answer.]
Then my skills shall be yours. We simply have to carry on with the tradition. And...those all sound lovely. [He ducks his head, a little bashful.] I haven't played my violin for you, yet.
How about we spend the night up there, then? I think I'd like to spend the night just the two of us... exploring this and seeing what we're comfortable with.
[ He kisses his cheek. ]
You haven't. I feel like I should be offended. [ A small huff, but he's okay. ] At least I know you'll make it up to me.
Mm. Even back then, I felt so comfortable with you. It was so easy to open up. Maybe our souls really were drawn to each other. Like finding something we both needed and never realized it.
I'll play you melodies so sweet for hours on end that you'll be happy to say that I've made it up to you, and more. But...yes. Why not. The night is young, after all.
[He strokes over the other's ear, gently. He kisses the other's forehead.]
I suppose fate has its peculiarities. Whatever they are, I'm glad they led me to you, my dear.
Ahaha. I am someone who does things on a whim, you know! I hardly plan things. I'll choose whatever I want, and most of that is you. I'm simply greedy that way.
[He just keeps it there - not just to feel the knife, but to feel the steady heartbeat underneath.]
I've never been...quite selfish. I was, once upon a time, but I simply expected nothing would go my way when it came to matters like these. [A sigh, and a kiss to the jaw.] We both gave each other chances. And what a blessed thing it is.
[ Wrong side, dear. He keeps his photos and letters on the side of his heart. The knife is on the other side. But feel free to touch there, too. ]
It's nice having someone to rely on this deep. To trust with everything. You are the only person here I have never doubted for a second. When I asked if I could tell you my secret, I was told that as long as I trusted you and felt it was safe, it'd be fine.
[his daughter is the doctor, not him, what is a heart]
[But he'll shift his hand to press there, too.]
I trust you with...every fiber of my being. [A sigh. He's flushed, emotionally moved.] Which is rather difficult for me to say. But it's true for you. And I'll...keep you safe. No matter what.
When you told me all of that, I knew, instantly, that...I couldn't let you go. I couldn't bear to. You put all of your trust on me, and there was never any way I would throw that way.
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I don't have...much experience in this regard, you understand. Even with Mikotoba, we...well, it was fine to just act as partners, without much affection shared in public, if at all. [A little sigh.] So I want to hear from you, yes. About what you think.
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I've only had my wife before. Ours was mainly in private, too. I'm embarrassed, too. But ... I think about when we kept our distance. How I couldn't go near you... and maybe we had our reasons, trying to protect my secret, but it was actually pretty painful.
Sholmes, I... After my wife passed, I didn't have any desire to be with anyone. My heart was hers completely. And then I met you. From the start I felt very comfortable with you and we've fallen into this pattern with each other.
[ He squeezes his hand before letting go to slump down against a tree, staring a little blankly. ]
I'd do it, for you, to make you comfortable. Giving us some... space. And distance. Keeping things chaste. But it'd be like those few weeks all over again. Except all the time. I know we don't have much time left here, but there's still about two weeks.
[ He ruffles his hair a bit. ]
Sorry, this is all pretty selfish of me. Your comfort comes first. Those are my thoughts. Forget the rest of it.
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[He thinks about that for a moment, before moving to sit down next to the other man. He reaches over to tuck a hair behind an ear.]
No, no. I always like hearing your thoughts, my dear. And I understand, I do. For me, that time where we were so far apart from each other was torment, truly. It was like...having you in my arms, but then having to throw that away every time I walked into public...excruciating.
[He moves his fingers to cup over the other's chin, pulling his head to look at him.]
Obviously, I don't want us to draw excessively needless attention, and certainly, there are things better left for private, but otherwise...you told me to be selfish, yes? And I want you to be selfish, too. Please.
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Of course. I don't plan on making our relationship a huge scene... despite what today went like.
Then, if you want me being honest and selfish with you, Sholmes... I don't want to stop what we've been doing. I don't even know if I could without staying away from you. I don't even understand it myself, but when I'm near you, I just want to touch you and hold you. Even in the simplest ways.
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[A kiss to his cheek. He draws back, his eyes sparkling.]
I feel the same. Those magnets, again. It will...take me a bit to maybe getting used to, I think, but...I also think that things will be as natural as they ever were. That's my deduction, as a great detective. Haha.
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In that case... you and I should go on a date. See where the rest of the day and night leads us.
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[A kiss back.]
I'd like that. And we don't even have to wear masks.
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[ He can't help but smile, giving another kiss. ]
Maybe that's the only one we officially stated to be a date, but I'm pretty sure we've had a number of them. Especially those last days in each world... [ A pause, then lets out a soft laugh. ] Maybe even back in that first world. Where we spent that night together, watching movies... Dating before we could even catch up to what was happening.
I have so many things I want to do with you, but not enough time here. Movies, music, food... There's so much to offer. I... want to also ask you for your lockpicking expertise. I found the way to the roof and I thought we could enjoy ourselves up there. A picnic between the two of us... the stars might be a little hard to see because of the city light, but that never stopped us before.
You could play your violin for me. We could read books to each other all night. Listen to each other. Listen to the city that never sleeps.
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[His hand moves, fingers sliding over the other's jaw. A kiss comes, like an answer.]
Then my skills shall be yours. We simply have to carry on with the tradition. And...those all sound lovely. [He ducks his head, a little bashful.] I haven't played my violin for you, yet.
[A pause. His voice, quiet.]
Dating before we were dating, hm? How poignant.
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[ He kisses his cheek. ]
You haven't. I feel like I should be offended. [ A small huff, but he's okay. ] At least I know you'll make it up to me.
Mm. Even back then, I felt so comfortable with you. It was so easy to open up. Maybe our souls really were drawn to each other. Like finding something we both needed and never realized it.
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[He strokes over the other's ear, gently. He kisses the other's forehead.]
I suppose fate has its peculiarities. Whatever they are, I'm glad they led me to you, my dear.
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[ There's a soft smile at these touches. ]
I never knew I could be so lucky. For as terrible of things that have happened... I'd live through it again if it meant for us to be together.
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[A kiss on his nose.]
I don't want you to live through anything terrible. But even so, I will say, it's more than a blessing that I could experience all that you are.
[HE'S SO SAPPYYYYYYYYYYY]
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[ He gives him an actual kiss. ]
I know, but I'd still do it to be with you. But let's hope we can rest easy after this...
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[A kiss, with a bashful sort of look.]
We have to. That is what we're working for.
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[ But he doesn't sound displeased. ]
Yeah. To make a future for everyone. For us...
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[He smirks, kissing the side of the other's mouth.]
We'll do it. I have hope in us.
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[ He nips lightly at him. ]
I do, too. [ He takes Sholmes' hand and brings it up to place over his jacket right at the spot where he keeps the knife safe. ]
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[He nods, feeling over the shape of the knife.]
I'm glad...you let me in, Kotetsu.
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[ He holds Sholmes' hand there. ]
I feel the same about you. I know I asked a lot from you after what we went through. So thank you... for giving me that chance.
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I've never been...quite selfish. I was, once upon a time, but I simply expected nothing would go my way when it came to matters like these. [A sigh, and a kiss to the jaw.] We both gave each other chances. And what a blessed thing it is.
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It's nice having someone to rely on this deep. To trust with everything. You are the only person here I have never doubted for a second. When I asked if I could tell you my secret, I was told that as long as I trusted you and felt it was safe, it'd be fine.
I'm glad I took that leap of faith.
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[But he'll shift his hand to press there, too.]
I trust you with...every fiber of my being. [A sigh. He's flushed, emotionally moved.] Which is rather difficult for me to say. But it's true for you. And I'll...keep you safe. No matter what.
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I don't really rely on people with things... so the fact that I wanted to share this with you... I hope you understand how meaningful that is.
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[He lets out a low sigh.]
When you told me all of that, I knew, instantly, that...I couldn't let you go. I couldn't bear to. You put all of your trust on me, and there was never any way I would throw that way.
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