sholmes catchall

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[ That phrasing just makes him tighten his grip even more. ]

No. I can't.

[ His head raises just enough to place a small kiss at the base of his neck. It's selfish. He said he wouldn't demand anything of Sholmes, that he wasn't expecting anything.

But he can't just let him run away. It feels like something... would break. ]

You keep trying to make my choice for happiness. If something happens, that's my choice, Sholmes. You're not the one who's hurting me. I know what I'm doing.

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[Again, he tenses - that's a terribly soft kiss, and it's making him want to run away all the more.]

..."You're not the one who's hurting me", and yet I'm the center of this particular equation. Funny how that works.

[You can't say that this is his choice when he's the center of that very choice! Dummy. Idiot. Fool.]

Don't I have a say in this, hm?

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[ He can say it, and he will reiterate. ]

From where I'm standing, your choice just seems to be running away.

[ He lets out a low sigh. ]

You keep going on about worrying about hurting me, but isn't it the other way around?

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What else am I supposed to do?

[His tone of voice is getting harder, colder.]

And whatever do you mean about that?

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Turn around and face me.

[ His fingers ease up a little. ]

Don't just run away and I'll tell you.

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...

[A sigh.]

[And he turns around to face him, without a word.]

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You said you don't like being an open book. Thing is, you kind of were the other night. Now you don't want to face the person that's see that.

[ His words are firm, but don't have any sharpness to them. Like he's trying to still hold some tenderness to them. ]

It feels like you're using the possibility of me getting hurt to make me back off, but I'm not really sure that's fully the case.

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...

[He frowns.]

Then what is the case, then?

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If I get hurt, you get hurt.

[ There's a bit of a shrug at that. ]

You're afraid something'll happen. I can pick up that much.

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[He just doesn't say anything, for a moment.]

Why did you think I said "take care of yourself for my sake"?

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That's what tipped it off.

[ He slowly picks up his hand to reach out toward Sholmes, to try to touch his cheek. ]

And why I couldn't just let you leave.

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[He huffs, closing his eyes. Still, he seems conflicted.]

My feelings will stay the same whether you make me stay or let me leave, you know.

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[ He steps a little closer, placing his other hand on his neck. ]

Why won't you just take the chance?

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[He raises his hand to hold over the other's, as if to pull it away.]

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I can't. Van Zieks is here, but besides him, I... [His face becomes sullen.] I can't throw away over fifteen years I've had with my dearest friend in the world for...for this.

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You can't use him as an excuse after what we talked about yesterday.

[ His brow furrows a little. He doesn't want to dismiss the dearest friend, but nods softly. ]

I'm not asking you to throw anyone away. I also don't want you to deny yourself because of excuses and fear.

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He's not an excuse.

[He actually bristles at that, slightly, but that next part makes his head hang low.]

You say it like I can have my cake and eat it too. It doesn't work like that.

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I didn't mean it exactly like that.

[ It just came off worse than he meant. No surprise. And then he's going to shake his head. ]

I don't see why not. I'm still here trying to convince you, despite knowing this.

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Convince me of what, exactly?

[There's a level of frustration in his tone.]

I've only known you for several days, Kotetsu. You're a good man, but...I can't.

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Of something. Of anything. Not to run away and avoid me because of your fear.

[ He's trying to remain calm, but he feels a bit flustered, too. ]

I'm aware of the short time we've known each other, but you've literally held my soul and I've done the same to yours. You've gotten to see parts of me that no one has seen that I've known for years.

I don't care about the time. I'm listening to what I want.

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We weren't in our right minds.

[It was a spell. It wasn't real. None of it was real, wasn't it?]

I know what happened. And you, too, saw parts of me I would have rather kept locked away. But the fact stands. Whatever this is now, it was built on a farce done to...I don't know. Make us into entertainment, perhaps.

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Sholmes.

[ He's trying to keep calm and not let his emotions get the best of him because he doesn't want to end this on a poor note.

Finley is leaving Kotetsu's side to approach Irene, testing her waters with the hare. ]

I've had people mock me plenty for different things. Some probably think I'm just some joke. So it doesn't really bother me if that's what started it.

What I care about is what's there now. Can you honestly say you feel absolutely nothing here?

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[Irene twitches her nose as Finley approaches, but then turns, hopping behind Sholmes's feet.]

[The detective himself is silent for a good moment.]

...It doesn't matter. If something is there, if something is not there. What will an answer like that give you?

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[ Finley droops a little, but doesn't sulk back by Kotetsu, just laying down on the floor and watching her. ]

Now that's kind of rude. It matters to me. If it didn't, I wouldn't have stopped you from walking out.

[ He takes in a slow, uneven breath. ]

It would give me something more solid from you. So, tell me.

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...

[Again, just silence.]

[I'm sorry, Kotetsu, but Sholmes is a rude binch and yes, he may need to be shaken to get any answer out.]

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[ Normally it's Kotetsu being shaken for answers and he grabs Sholmes' face. ]

You found me, knowing exactly what I wanted to talk about. You could have ignored me. So, why didn't you?