Because I was talking to someone regarding roles. They were quite nosy in wanting to know if I had one, and then inadvertently revealed they had one themselves.
They also informed me that it would ill-advised to search out roles, as being a role and telling others about it could put the role itself in jeopardy. They stated that one could lose the role they were given.
...It's true. That's why I hold this secret to tight to me. And why... I don't know what to do.
[ A frustrated sigh. ]
Being encouraged to find other roles and find my team, but also being told I'm supposed to keep these things close to me? Not knowing who is or isn't...
[ He trails off. He hates this. He hates not knowing who he can or can't trust. Hates not being able to fully trust these people he wants to believe in from the bottom of his heart. ]
...It's a difficult situation. I will admit, I don't know what to do, as well. I have been doing some work with Mr. Xie Lian to gather what roles we know...besides you, of course.
[He sighs.]
What is important to me, I think, is "revealing you when the time is right". I do not want the information of your role being given out so willy-nilly, especially when yours is a role that is something that holds importance for the rest of us. But...
[A pause. It's hard. Its hard having something so precious, and not knowing what to do about it.]
It's up to you. My recommendations are only just that.
The position I'm in is... unique. I'm technically Celestial, but the Watchers treat me more as a neutral person. I was chosen by both sides of those at the top, after all...
[ It's so... strange! This feeling. ]
For now, you might be right. If I'm approached... I'll have to see where it goes.
[He nods, sighing as he again rests his chin on the other's shoulder.]
There's also the question of "what can you provide". The others...they may have responsibilities relating to the cases at hand. But you, you open the doors to other worlds. It isn't as if you can actively choose something better or worse for the rest of us. Your role is to ensure our safety, as well. As you said...neutral.
[He closes his eyes.]
The only thing you have mentioned that may need to be known to the world at large, at some point, is...the possibility you may help us break through to the world of the dead. Wherever they are.
But as you said, it will come with time. This is bigger than the both of us, you know. And if you are the key to bring everyone back...I'm sure you'll step up to the occasion.
Of course. Those secrets are for you and I to hold, no one else.
[He's just very soft and fond right now.]
....By the by. If Mr. Escardos comes asking, do let him know that we are still seemingly unable to resolve our differences. He does seem insistent on keeping our friendship together.
[ It's strange. Kotetsu enjoys their secrets, but he also wants to embrace their relationship and not have to worry about a touch or a look giving them away. ]
I'll keep that in mind. It's hard to lie to him... he seems to be having a hard time. Jack was really protective. I think he's afraid of who to trust.
That young man is...well, I won't go into details. But he's lived a life that he's tried very hard to keep as happy as he wants it to be. Its hard for him. He wants connections, to understand...well, to just understand, in general.
[He sighs.]
But we'll just have to ensure he'll be alright, in the days that will keep coming.
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How did you find out about this...?
[ It's surprisingly, really. And yet, also not. Sholmes really was talented in his information gather and this shows it. ]
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They also informed me that it would ill-advised to search out roles, as being a role and telling others about it could put the role itself in jeopardy. They stated that one could lose the role they were given.
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[ A frustrated sigh. ]
Being encouraged to find other roles and find my team, but also being told I'm supposed to keep these things close to me? Not knowing who is or isn't...
[ He trails off. He hates this. He hates not knowing who he can or can't trust. Hates not being able to fully trust these people he wants to believe in from the bottom of his heart. ]
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[He sighs.]
What is important to me, I think, is "revealing you when the time is right". I do not want the information of your role being given out so willy-nilly, especially when yours is a role that is something that holds importance for the rest of us. But...
[A pause. It's hard. Its hard having something so precious, and not knowing what to do about it.]
It's up to you. My recommendations are only just that.
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The position I'm in is... unique. I'm technically Celestial, but the Watchers treat me more as a neutral person. I was chosen by both sides of those at the top, after all...
[ It's so... strange! This feeling. ]
For now, you might be right. If I'm approached... I'll have to see where it goes.
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There's also the question of "what can you provide". The others...they may have responsibilities relating to the cases at hand. But you, you open the doors to other worlds. It isn't as if you can actively choose something better or worse for the rest of us. Your role is to ensure our safety, as well. As you said...neutral.
[He closes his eyes.]
The only thing you have mentioned that may need to be known to the world at large, at some point, is...the possibility you may help us break through to the world of the dead. Wherever they are.
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[ And it's only a possibility. But then, the corner of his lip twitches. ]
Maybe there's a selfish part of me that also wants to keep this secret between the two of us alone.
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[He turns his head to kiss him.]
But as you said, it will come with time. This is bigger than the both of us, you know. And if you are the key to bring everyone back...I'm sure you'll step up to the occasion.
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[ He softly kisses back. ]
We have other secrets to keep. Other things we'll have only between us.
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[He's just very soft and fond right now.]
....By the by. If Mr. Escardos comes asking, do let him know that we are still seemingly unable to resolve our differences. He does seem insistent on keeping our friendship together.
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I'll keep that in mind. It's hard to lie to him... he seems to be having a hard time. Jack was really protective. I think he's afraid of who to trust.
[ But maybe that's just his gut instinct. ]
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[His expression falls.]
That young man is...well, I won't go into details. But he's lived a life that he's tried very hard to keep as happy as he wants it to be. Its hard for him. He wants connections, to understand...well, to just understand, in general.
[He sighs.]
But we'll just have to ensure he'll be alright, in the days that will keep coming.
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[ He leans a bit heavier on Sholmes. ]
I found out a bit about him... His life seemed complicated.
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[A sigh.]
I don't think I've met a single person here whose life isn't complicated.
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It's nice having someone I don't have to lie to.
[ Let's not talk about other things he's kept hidden at home. ]
You're right. Everyone has a story...
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[To be so open and vulnerable, and not have to worry. Also yeah, let's not talk about other things *he's* kept hidden at home.]
One wonders the selection process. I don't feel we're doing much for this "conflict" anyways.
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[ He may or may not know Something, but... they can worry about those things later. ]
I wondered the same. Especially since everyone had their powers taken from the start.
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Oh, that reminds me. We never did try out your powers, did we?
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We got a little... distracted last week.
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Hm. We sure did, didn't we? I suppose there's always this coming week. You know I'd like to see them.
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There's always tonight.