[ It's a wonder if it will or not... But Kotetsu will do his best to try to keep it this way. He's... hopeful for the end, but he's too afraid to ask how long Sholmes is talking.
Sholmes has someone he's waiting for still... right? He's known this from the start. And he'd never make him choose.
He plucks the muffin from him for a second and leans in to kiss him. It's a bit deep, a little needy. ]
[How long is too long? After this, if they find a way out of here, could he really return like nothing had happened? Like his heart was never in someone else's hands?]
[He pauses, but then returns the kiss readily, hand reaching up to hold his cheek. Keep him here.]
[ He's tossing that muffin awkwardly behind him before wrapping both of his arms around Sholmes' neck.
He doesn't want to let go of this. Ever. He feels so selfish for it, that he wants to take him home with him. And maybe that's even more selfish of him... wanting Sholmes to give up his familiar to come be with him.
Would he give up his own life for this man? It's something he'd consider now, but the family that ties him to home... It's hard. How can he ask Sholmes to give up his world when he has troubles grappling with the idea of giving up his own? ]
[He's also been thinking over the same things. Over and over. What will happen, after all this is over? Kotetsu is...special. Someone he adores, with, quite literally, all his soul.]
[He murmurs into the kiss, other hand moving to hold the side of his head as he deepens it. To leave his home, the place he's had for sixteen years...would he? Would Kotetsu come see him? Was this...just doomed from the start?]
[He can't think like that. He doesn't want to think like that.]
[He wants to sink in the moment with this man, together. Forever. Eternally.]
[ He can't help but feel desperate in this kiss. Like it could end at any moment and he'd be left unsatisfied. He wants to hold on to this man for good. Even if they return to a world where their souls no longer project... that memory won't fade.
That feeling of having Sholmes touch Finley and in return touching Irene. That's not something you can just turn away from.
He's lost his love once... can he handle it again? He would. He would for his daughter, his family. But he knows there would be that hole in him forever. That... empty piece and a mountain of regret.
He doesn't want that.
And in this moment, he can't help but utter something selfishly out: ]
Come with me...
[ It's soft, quiet, against his lips. He's so afraid what the response would be. But it's too late now. The words are already out there.
He's making him choose. This isn't what he wants. He only wants the man's happiness. But he can't help but feel that selfishness, too. The more he falls for Sholmes, the more he wants to keep him close.
It's already too late for him to let go. And he doesn't want to.
[He expected that would come, at some point. That request.]
[What...does he do? He's a Victorian man, made for the streets of London, with its fog, its mysteries. He is a great detective, world-famous, and the world eagerly waits for more published adventures. It's hard to...think about, just...nothing being there.]
[To go to Kotetsu's world, to leave everything behind, with Iris in tow...it's exciting. A whole new world. To be with him, always.]
Kotetsu...
[An exhale against his lips.]
I would. [He finally says, after a moment. Of course he would. There's no going back now.] But could we not...travel back and forth?
[A hum. Wouldn't that be a compromise? To have the doorways open. To go back and forth. To have both homes, and each other, all at the same time.]
Can we not have the best of both? Would that be possible?
[ It's something he considered. But he doesn't know if that's possible. With how the worlds feel, how things tear. But... maybe. If he's allowed to keep this... Once he knows that feeling... ]
It's what we can hope for... I...
[ His arms tighten around him a bit more. ]
I don't want this to end. I want to share our worlds together.
[ Please...
But hearing that from Sholmes. Hearing... he wants their lives entwined?
He shifts a little, bringing his lips to Sholmes' ear. ]
I promised I'd never leave you. I meant it.
[ The weight of those words. What it would mean if they couldn't have both. ]
[He shivers at the words in his ear, feels his eyes watering, like they have so many times before with Kotetsu, because...he always knows what to say. Always delivers his words directly to his heart.]
[He leans into the other's embrace, shaking his head.]
I'll...go wherever you go. You have done me this kindness, to...promise such a thing. How could I not promise something in return?
[ Because this is the most important part. They know that wherever one goes, the other follows. This isn't the end of their story.
He plants a soft kiss on Sholmes' ear, pulling back his head to look at him. The expression on his face is filled with such deep warmth. Love and affection. ]
I'll make you happy, no matter where we end up. You and Iris both.
[ Because he knows that detail is important, too. She would, of course, be with them. ]
[He bumps their foreheads together, noses brushing up against each other. Always eager to close the distance. Its so different from before, running from this. Running from them. Now, it feels like insanity to think that he and him could be ever apart for that long.]
And I, you. [A sigh.] You and Kaede will be in my care. I won't...let this go.
[His hands reach out to cup the other's face.]
After all, didn't you say that we have to keep dancing among the stars together?
[ Which should be interesting for them, once they're out of this high pressure situation, seeing how they mold into one another's lives. If they can truly go home together. ]
I never thought I could feel like this again.
[ Because he knows what he felt with Tomoe and it'd be a disservice to both her and Sholmes if he didn't admit to that being the case. ]
So? We're all flawed, in our own ways. I would not take you as you are without everything behind you, the good and the bad.
[And he nods...that's right. That's another thing that's brought them together. The fact that they have people they loved so deeply that it feels strange to admit to love someone else the same way. But somehow, they do.]
Mm. Love works in mysterious ways. Sometimes...one's heart can be unlocked again.
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Good.
[He pauses, rubbing over the other shoulders.]
Now that you've so thoroughly interrupted my breakfast, the least you could do is hand me a muffin.
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Yes, yes. Of course.
[ Demanding ho. But he leans to grab one for him. Here, sir. ]
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...I don't think I'd mind having breakfast like this, you know.
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I'd hope not, considering we're having it now...?
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I mean in general. For the future! Come now, my dear.
[JUST LET HIM HAVE THIS!!]
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I did promise I'd make sure you ate enough each day.
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[...]
[Right, for the future. Like it's...always going to be like this? Is it really?]
And I am...grateful. Truly.
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Sholmes has someone he's waiting for still... right? He's known this from the start. And he'd never make him choose.
He plucks the muffin from him for a second and leans in to kiss him. It's a bit deep, a little needy. ]
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[He pauses, but then returns the kiss readily, hand reaching up to hold his cheek. Keep him here.]
[Don't leave me.]
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He doesn't want to let go of this. Ever. He feels so selfish for it, that he wants to take him home with him. And maybe that's even more selfish of him... wanting Sholmes to give up his familiar to come be with him.
Would he give up his own life for this man? It's something he'd consider now, but the family that ties him to home... It's hard. How can he ask Sholmes to give up his world when he has troubles grappling with the idea of giving up his own? ]
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[He murmurs into the kiss, other hand moving to hold the side of his head as he deepens it. To leave his home, the place he's had for sixteen years...would he? Would Kotetsu come see him? Was this...just doomed from the start?]
[He can't think like that. He doesn't want to think like that.]
[He wants to sink in the moment with this man, together. Forever. Eternally.]
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That feeling of having Sholmes touch Finley and in return touching Irene. That's not something you can just turn away from.
He's lost his love once... can he handle it again? He would. He would for his daughter, his family. But he knows there would be that hole in him forever. That... empty piece and a mountain of regret.
He doesn't want that.
And in this moment, he can't help but utter something selfishly out: ]
Come with me...
[ It's soft, quiet, against his lips. He's so afraid what the response would be. But it's too late now. The words are already out there.
He's making him choose. This isn't what he wants. He only wants the man's happiness. But he can't help but feel that selfishness, too. The more he falls for Sholmes, the more he wants to keep him close.
It's already too late for him to let go. And he doesn't want to.
He also feels it... don't leave me. ]
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[He expected that would come, at some point. That request.]
[What...does he do? He's a Victorian man, made for the streets of London, with its fog, its mysteries. He is a great detective, world-famous, and the world eagerly waits for more published adventures. It's hard to...think about, just...nothing being there.]
[To go to Kotetsu's world, to leave everything behind, with Iris in tow...it's exciting. A whole new world. To be with him, always.]
Kotetsu...
[An exhale against his lips.]
I would. [He finally says, after a moment. Of course he would. There's no going back now.] But could we not...travel back and forth?
[A hum. Wouldn't that be a compromise? To have the doorways open. To go back and forth. To have both homes, and each other, all at the same time.]
Can we not have the best of both? Would that be possible?
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It's what we can hope for... I...
[ His arms tighten around him a bit more. ]
I don't want this to end. I want to share our worlds together.
[ Please...
But hearing that from Sholmes. Hearing... he wants their lives entwined?
He shifts a little, bringing his lips to Sholmes' ear. ]
I promised I'd never leave you. I meant it.
[ The weight of those words. What it would mean if they couldn't have both. ]
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I don't want this to end, either.
[He shivers at the words in his ear, feels his eyes watering, like they have so many times before with Kotetsu, because...he always knows what to say. Always delivers his words directly to his heart.]
[He leans into the other's embrace, shaking his head.]
I'll...go wherever you go. You have done me this kindness, to...promise such a thing. How could I not promise something in return?
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[ Because this is the most important part. They know that wherever one goes, the other follows. This isn't the end of their story.
He plants a soft kiss on Sholmes' ear, pulling back his head to look at him. The expression on his face is filled with such deep warmth. Love and affection. ]
I'll make you happy, no matter where we end up. You and Iris both.
[ Because he knows that detail is important, too. She would, of course, be with them. ]
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[He bumps their foreheads together, noses brushing up against each other. Always eager to close the distance. Its so different from before, running from this. Running from them. Now, it feels like insanity to think that he and him could be ever apart for that long.]
And I, you. [A sigh.] You and Kaede will be in my care. I won't...let this go.
[His hands reach out to cup the other's face.]
After all, didn't you say that we have to keep dancing among the stars together?
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Forevermore, right?
[ He saw the wish. And it's so nice to have the same desire. ]
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[A kiss with that word, soft.]
I never thought myself as particularly romantic, but...goodness. You really bring it out of me.
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[ He's talking about how he feels about Sholmes helping him through all this, more than lifting himself up. ]
It feels so comfortable with you.
[ Another kiss. ]
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[A kiss in reply, like an answer in and of itself.]
You're already the best you are. [A hum.] And it is comfortable, isn't it? Like we're meant to be slotted together.
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[ Which should be interesting for them, once they're out of this high pressure situation, seeing how they mold into one another's lives. If they can truly go home together. ]
I never thought I could feel like this again.
[ Because he knows what he felt with Tomoe and it'd be a disservice to both her and Sholmes if he didn't admit to that being the case. ]
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[And he nods...that's right. That's another thing that's brought them together. The fact that they have people they loved so deeply that it feels strange to admit to love someone else the same way. But somehow, they do.]
Mm. Love works in mysterious ways. Sometimes...one's heart can be unlocked again.
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I guess things would be pretty boring if everyone was flawless.
[ He lightly kisses Sholmes again. To have someone he doesn't have to hide things from again... It's such an odd feeling. ]
It does. In the most unlikely ways...
[ Leave it to Sholmes to give his life confession like that... ]
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Most certainly, it would be.
[He turns his head to press a kiss against his jawline.]
You make me so incredibly happy, Kotetsu.
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