I think what you and Xie Lian did to Sholmes was pretty shitty. Didn't realize I was bringing him in to be attacked by you guys. I thought he was there to help out, especially with Nero's stuff.
I guess I was an idiot to think that's how it'd work out. I'm also pretty mad about not having another option to tell someone. I didn't realize it was limited to two, but that's my fault for not asking. A little warning would have been nice beyond there being a limit.
[ That last part he knows he's to blame for not asking, but he was pretty overwhelmed with meeting everyone and trying to catch up in a race he was behind on. ]
So, I'm starting to wonder if I should regret having agreed to this whole thing if this was what was going to happen.
I was making a point in general, because apparently despite everyone seeing what happened to the Watchers in Otamo, no one actually asked them about how many people we can actually tell. And that’s probably on me for assuming, but that’s why I made the point of asking if everyone was okay about meeting certain people and letting you take the time to decide, and why I reiterated the importance of not chasing people down and being careful about discussions outside of those who know when I did. If it wasn’t clear enough, then yeah. That is on me, and I’m sorry for taking that choice from you.
Despite it being my role to gather people together, I’m not actually your babysitters — if Xie Lian had a issue and wanted to address it, that was news to me and having things kick off like that wasn’t exactly something I expected from this either. Sholmes is smart, and knows a lot of things we don’t know and having him around isn’t a bad thing. I don’t mind reiterating that to him myself.
But if you’re mad about it, then I can say this much: he probably has a reason to be mad too.
[ which sort of leads into the point that frustrates him a bit— ]
I’m not going to judge this “us versus the world” mentality you seem to have given each other, but I am interested in knowing why, when we’re all at constant risk anyway no matter what we do.
I get that he probably has his reasons, but both of you going after Sholmes like that at once. Pretty shitty, if you ask me.
Not that I don't understand points being made. But we're all guilty in this situation and Xie Lian has done things wrong, too. Sholmes wanted to help and he was met with aggression. I put him in the line of fire that I didn't even know was coming.
[ At the last part he sighs. ]
We've all got our duties, but I have something to protect on top of it. I can't let this item get into the wrong hands or everything is doomed. We're guarding that.
Well, it wasn’t my intention to make him feel attacked. I can talk to him. The plain facts are, in trying to help, he put someone in danger. I’m not sugar coating that for you.
But I do believe him when he says he didn’t mean to, and worked to stop that after speaking to me. He apologised, and I believe it.
[ at that last part he just looks tired again. ]
You’re not the only one protecting an item linked to your role, you know. I can’t say for sure if there’s a difference — maybe yours is more important that anything else, who knows. It probably is? But I haven’t turned it into a world versus me and mine to do so.
I haven’t and won’t mention any item though. Don’t worry about that.
I'm glad you believe him. There's no way he could have known. Even with what happened at trial. I thought that meant speaking about the roles in such a big setting and I have a role.
He's always wanted to help.
[ he shakes his head a bit ]
I'm not trying to turn it into that. I still want to trust everyone and protect everyone. I believe we can make it through this as a group.
But you've seen what's happened to these worlds we've been to. The spectres... What I have to protect... It's to save our worlds from having the same fate.
But thank you. I can't afford to lose this.
[ he hesitates a moment. ]
I'm sorry if I'm acting a bit... [ he doesn't know how to put it, just shaking his head a little. ] Something happened while I was missing. Something I'm trying to work through. I know everyone that went on their trips has their baggage... So I'm trying.
he pokes him in the centre of the forehead. lightly. provided he's not bleeding from there? kotetsu where aren't you bleeding from? ]
What's happened has happened. As long we're all just trying to get through this in one piece? That's all I'm looking for. And I believe you both when you say you are.
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I haven't told the others in great if any detail, but I can track spectres as well. Is there something you can think of that would be good to look into? Like, if it helps you with this whole window thing, if knowing where they are points you towards a window, then it's worth doing.
[ there's a slight twitch of his lips. ] We can keep that arrangement between us -- and Sholmes, if you want. If it's something that'll work.
Yeah, well. After last weekend-- [ he pauses, and there's a frown on his face. ] I'm probably not in the best of moods myself. We're all carrying our shit around in our own ways.
[ He's fine... It's fine. But he looks up at the finger poking his head, then back at Yuri. ]
I'm not sure if that would help. That's something I'd have to ask the Watchers about, if that's any indication.
[ And, since Yuri is getting more open. ]
You should be able to see the windows... I made one for Sholmes. Don't worry, I closed it immediately, so there isn't any problems. But he's been helping me look.
... It's why he fell out of a tree the other week. [ Slightly exasperated tone at him doing stupid things. ]
I just need a little time. Not even to rest, since we don't have that. But to recover. I'll get there.
[ Probably with Sholmes' help. But that should be a given at this point and not something he needs to state. ]
But for the meetings... Hm. I feel like it's hypocritical of me only wanting Sholmes there for small meetings, but also... it might make things easier for a bit. At the very least, I'm glad that Nero and Sholmes are able to work on things together. That was my main goal in this.
Checking is fine. Right now, I’m just seeing where they congregate.
[ he just. closes his eyes at that. fuckin’ sholmes (friendly) ]
I’ve already told someone to take all the time they need to work through things that happen here. I can say it again, with feeling. [ go get your gay hug therapy. ]
You can feed back whatever to him if he doesn’t want to come along. We’ll figure something out, and make sure we get the information out to others as much as we can.
[ rude poker. but yeah. then again, he's a big idiot himself, so he can't throw stones. ]
The problem is, we don't have a lot of time and rest isn't really an option. So, I'll work through it as I can. [ about that ... ]
At the very least, Nero and him can meet up together. They seemed to be getting along well together. Nero can always bring information back to us, too, that they figure out.
[ so, there's that. either way, sholmes is a resource now. ]
[ this is just yuri with kotetsu and sholmes right now honestly. ratshaking them into self care. ]
If you burn out it'll be worse. Just keep that in mind, alright? If you need a piggyback ride while you're wandering around, I can probably pull that off with a little determination.
Nero's probably got one of the more daunting jobs, alongside you. He might try and leg it though, so corner him somewhere he can't flee from.
[ puts sholmes on the shelf. this is a surprise tool that will help us later. ]
I appreciate it, but... I am working on it. The leg thing.
[ he nods some at that ]
I don't know how much I can help with the codes. Not really my strong suit... But I'll help him out where I can and make sure they're working together.
[ also, how is sholmes being a tool any kind of a surprise? or just. surprise! here's a tool. ]
There’s no chance of a replacement? I know Sholmes got his hand replaced, but a leg’s bigger…
[ he looks like he’s thinking about that. ]
Mm. Same, puzzles and logic aren’t exactly my strong suit either. But context clues means I can figure we’re learning about why there’s this division in the first place. It’d be nice if we knew how to stop it.
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Alright then, we can talk in circles or we can actually talk. One or the other, thanks.
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[ Yeah. He's... not being his normal self at all. ]
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I guess I was an idiot to think that's how it'd work out. I'm also pretty mad about not having another option to tell someone. I didn't realize it was limited to two, but that's my fault for not asking. A little warning would have been nice beyond there being a limit.
[ That last part he knows he's to blame for not asking, but he was pretty overwhelmed with meeting everyone and trying to catch up in a race he was behind on. ]
So, I'm starting to wonder if I should regret having agreed to this whole thing if this was what was going to happen.
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Despite it being my role to gather people together, I’m not actually your babysitters — if Xie Lian had a issue and wanted to address it, that was news to me and having things kick off like that wasn’t exactly something I expected from this either. Sholmes is smart, and knows a lot of things we don’t know and having him around isn’t a bad thing. I don’t mind reiterating that to him myself.
But if you’re mad about it, then I can say this much: he probably has a reason to be mad too.
[ which sort of leads into the point that frustrates him a bit— ]
I’m not going to judge this “us versus the world” mentality you seem to have given each other, but I am interested in knowing why, when we’re all at constant risk anyway no matter what we do.
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Not that I don't understand points being made. But we're all guilty in this situation and Xie Lian has done things wrong, too. Sholmes wanted to help and he was met with aggression. I put him in the line of fire that I didn't even know was coming.
[ At the last part he sighs. ]
We've all got our duties, but I have something to protect on top of it. I can't let this item get into the wrong hands or everything is doomed. We're guarding that.
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Well, it wasn’t my intention to make him feel attacked. I can talk to him. The plain facts are, in trying to help, he put someone in danger. I’m not sugar coating that for you.
But I do believe him when he says he didn’t mean to, and worked to stop that after speaking to me. He apologised, and I believe it.
[ at that last part he just looks tired again. ]
You’re not the only one protecting an item linked to your role, you know. I can’t say for sure if there’s a difference — maybe yours is more important that anything else, who knows. It probably is? But I haven’t turned it into a world versus me and mine to do so.
I haven’t and won’t mention any item though. Don’t worry about that.
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He's always wanted to help.
[ he shakes his head a bit ]
I'm not trying to turn it into that. I still want to trust everyone and protect everyone. I believe we can make it through this as a group.
But you've seen what's happened to these worlds we've been to. The spectres... What I have to protect... It's to save our worlds from having the same fate.
But thank you. I can't afford to lose this.
[ he hesitates a moment. ]
I'm sorry if I'm acting a bit... [ he doesn't know how to put it, just shaking his head a little. ] Something happened while I was missing. Something I'm trying to work through. I know everyone that went on their trips has their baggage... So I'm trying.
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he pokes him in the centre of the forehead. lightly. provided he's not bleeding from there? kotetsu where aren't you bleeding from? ]
What's happened has happened. As long we're all just trying to get through this in one piece? That's all I'm looking for. And I believe you both when you say you are.
...
I haven't told the others in great if any detail, but I can track spectres as well. Is there something you can think of that would be good to look into? Like, if it helps you with this whole window thing, if knowing where they are points you towards a window, then it's worth doing.
[ there's a slight twitch of his lips. ] We can keep that arrangement between us -- and Sholmes, if you want. If it's something that'll work.
Yeah, well. After last weekend-- [ he pauses, and there's a frown on his face. ] I'm probably not in the best of moods myself. We're all carrying our shit around in our own ways.
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I'm not sure if that would help. That's something I'd have to ask the Watchers about, if that's any indication.
[ And, since Yuri is getting more open. ]
You should be able to see the windows... I made one for Sholmes. Don't worry, I closed it immediately, so there isn't any problems. But he's been helping me look.
... It's why he fell out of a tree the other week. [ Slightly exasperated tone at him doing stupid things. ]
I just need a little time. Not even to rest, since we don't have that. But to recover. I'll get there.
[ Probably with Sholmes' help. But that should be a given at this point and not something he needs to state. ]
But for the meetings... Hm. I feel like it's hypocritical of me only wanting Sholmes there for small meetings, but also... it might make things easier for a bit. At the very least, I'm glad that Nero and Sholmes are able to work on things together. That was my main goal in this.
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Checking is fine. Right now, I’m just seeing where they congregate.
[ he just. closes his eyes at that. fuckin’ sholmes (friendly) ]
I’ve already told someone to take all the time they need to work through things that happen here. I can say it again, with feeling. [ go get your gay hug therapy. ]
You can feed back whatever to him if he doesn’t want to come along. We’ll figure something out, and make sure we get the information out to others as much as we can.
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The problem is, we don't have a lot of time and rest isn't really an option. So, I'll work through it as I can. [ about that ... ]
At the very least, Nero and him can meet up together. They seemed to be getting along well together. Nero can always bring information back to us, too, that they figure out.
[ so, there's that. either way, sholmes is a resource now. ]
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If you burn out it'll be worse. Just keep that in mind, alright? If you need a piggyback ride while you're wandering around, I can probably pull that off with a little determination.
Nero's probably got one of the more daunting jobs, alongside you. He might try and leg it though, so corner him somewhere he can't flee from.
[ puts sholmes on the shelf. this is a surprise tool that will help us later. ]
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I appreciate it, but... I am working on it. The leg thing.
[ he nods some at that ]
I don't know how much I can help with the codes. Not really my strong suit... But I'll help him out where I can and make sure they're working together.
[ also, how is sholmes being a tool any kind of a surprise? or just. surprise! here's a tool. ]
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[ he looks like he’s thinking about that. ]
Mm. Same, puzzles and logic aren’t exactly my strong suit either. But context clues means I can figure we’re learning about why there’s this division in the first place. It’d be nice if we knew how to stop it.
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[ tasks are a thing sometimes ]
Maybe we'll be able to get some of those answers coming up.
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[ he does seem pleased about that. ]
... yeah. I think we're overdue some at this point.
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And some real answers this time. Not just vague half answers.
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Yeah. Wouldn't those be nice? Unlikely. But nice.
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Maybe we'll get lucky for once.
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My luck.
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