Yeah... me neither, honestly. I'm trying not to take it personally, since I know it made the most sense with the evidence that was there. And it's not like I haven't voted for someone without being sure of it either.
Well, if I've got less than a day to go here, I don't want to spend it just being angry and miserable. [ ... ] I'd be a pretty big hypocrite if that was the case.
...When Lou got sick, our options were to devote our lives to the goddess to get a cure for him, or to go back home and let him live out his last few days -- free to be there with the people he loved as a real person, but also to suffer through that illness and die. I thought that being free to make your own happiness by pushing through the pain was the most important thing anyone could have, and I wasn't willing to give that up for either of us.
So if I let myself get caged in by these bad feelings now and don't try to live to the fullest on my last day too, then... it'd feel like I put him through something I wasn't willing to do myself.
[ Which she really hates saying, since fighting to the end is her entire thing. If she'd actually killed anyone then she would, because she doesn't believe in half-assing things and it would be an insult to the victim to back down after that. But when there's no good reason this is happening in the first place... ]
I mean... It's not like any other innocent person deserves to die for this either. Trying to kill them would be like saying my life's worth more than theirs is.
And if I fight with no intention of coming out of it myself, then I'm just hurting someone for no reason and making you guys waste even more of your medical supplies.
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[ She's quiet for a moment, then just sighs. ]
This whole thing really sucks, huh?
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It does. None of it's easy on anyone here. [ He pauses, hesitant, but. ] I... really didn't think you'd be voted.
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[ A heavy sigh. ]
You're really strong, taking this the way you are.
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So if I let myself get caged in by these bad feelings now and don't try to live to the fullest on my last day too, then... it'd feel like I put him through something I wasn't willing to do myself.
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I get where you're coming from. You... really do have a strong heart living like that to the end.
[ He furrows his brow, though. ]
Are you planning to not fight tomorrow?
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Probably not.
[ Which she really hates saying, since fighting to the end is her entire thing. If she'd actually killed anyone then she would, because she doesn't believe in half-assing things and it would be an insult to the victim to back down after that. But when there's no good reason this is happening in the first place... ]
I mean... It's not like any other innocent person deserves to die for this either. Trying to kill them would be like saying my life's worth more than theirs is.
And if I fight with no intention of coming out of it myself, then I'm just hurting someone for no reason and making you guys waste even more of your medical supplies.
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I'll be there to support you in your choice. Whatever happens tomorrow. At least you can know that you kept to your conviction through it all.