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[ He looks at him curiously, but not... judgmental. ]
What happened back there?
What happened back there?
[He just limply curls into the couch.]
Someone cursed me.
Now I can't get the cold emptiness out of me. I'm dead, inside and out.
Why does it still hurt?
Someone cursed me.
Now I can't get the cold emptiness out of me. I'm dead, inside and out.
Why does it still hurt?
[ He frowns, wishing he had something that could counteract that... ]
That... [ Hm. He... isn't sure what words he should even use. ]
I don't know. I don't understand why anyone would do that, either.
That... [ Hm. He... isn't sure what words he should even use. ]
I don't know. I don't understand why anyone would do that, either.
[He laughs, short and bitter.] I do. They knew what I was doing.
They wanted to shut me down and thought it'd be funny, or they hoped I'd throw myself onto a wooden stake and die.
Probably Reze or whatever that other prick's name is.
They wanted to shut me down and thought it'd be funny, or they hoped I'd throw myself onto a wooden stake and die.
Probably Reze or whatever that other prick's name is.
What other person...?
[ He genuinely doesn't know who that would be referring to, but he rubs his neck. Irritated someone would do this. ]
[ He genuinely doesn't know who that would be referring to, but he rubs his neck. Irritated someone would do this. ]
Allen Walker.
Then again, maybe it's just the Slayer's ghost haunting me. Or maybe I got a soul proper, like I asked for, and this is what happened.
But I think it's more likely someone just cursed me, to be like this, forever.
Then again, maybe it's just the Slayer's ghost haunting me. Or maybe I got a soul proper, like I asked for, and this is what happened.
But I think it's more likely someone just cursed me, to be like this, forever.
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I'm betting it's a curse, too...
[ He sighs heavily. ]
Hopefully it's a temporary thing, but... I could try to see if one of the Watchers could help, if you want that.
[ He sighs heavily. ]
Hopefully it's a temporary thing, but... I could try to see if one of the Watchers could help, if you want that.
What's the point?
This is just what I deserve. You might as well stake me now.
This is just what I deserve. You might as well stake me now.
You might have done evil things, but after hearing about your tether and the other things I told you, I don't think you deserve this.
That's just further cause. I'm an abomination.
A soulless vampire in love with a dead slayer. You know how fucked up that is? We're not supposed to change like that.
A soulless vampire in love with a dead slayer. You know how fucked up that is? We're not supposed to change like that.
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And yet that's where you are.
Spike... I still have that faith in you. I don't think you're an abomination.
Spike... I still have that faith in you. I don't think you're an abomination.
[ He frowns at that and goes over to place his hand on Spike's back softly. ]
[Spike is sitting alone at the bar, an entire pitcher full of whiskey being served in front of him. He doesn't notice Kotetsu come in, or if he does, he shows no sign of it.
He's still fucking furious, even hours later.]
He's still fucking furious, even hours later.]
[ Well, understandable. But he taps the spot on the bar next to Spike. ]
Mind if I join you?
Mind if I join you?
By all means. [He waves a hand, already pouring his own drink, which is just straight whiskey in a full wine glass. He passes the pitcher to Kotetsu.]
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[ Well, in the case, he reaches to get himself a glass for drinking, too, then sits. Whiskey... funny that, he had some a few weeks ago under better circumstances. But he pours himself a glass. ]
How's it going, after all that?
[ He sure did see that punch happen, after all. ]
How's it going, after all that?
[ He sure did see that punch happen, after all. ]
Honestly?
I'm pretty furious.
[At Kaeya, at Xie Lian, at whoever the fuck put a curse on him, or keeps putting curses on him the second he brings something up.] At least Kaeya's stupid martyrdom failed.
I'm pretty furious.
[At Kaeya, at Xie Lian, at whoever the fuck put a curse on him, or keeps putting curses on him the second he brings something up.] At least Kaeya's stupid martyrdom failed.
I understand what he wanted to do, but I also agree... that I'm glad it failed. I didn't want to see Rochalizo die, but the alternative would have been much worse.
I understand too. It's very basic, stupid and naive logic to follow.
[He sighs, dejected.]
I can't say I don't understand why he did it... I might have given my life if it was Alisaie. But it's so pointless and human, to want to die not for any practical purpose that might help, but just out of pure spite and pride.
Rochalizo wouldn't have survived either. All it would've ended with was both of them getting consumed by those disgusting smoke tentacles.
[He sighs, dejected.]
I can't say I don't understand why he did it... I might have given my life if it was Alisaie. But it's so pointless and human, to want to die not for any practical purpose that might help, but just out of pure spite and pride.
Rochalizo wouldn't have survived either. All it would've ended with was both of them getting consumed by those disgusting smoke tentacles.
I guess everyone thought the Spectres were only going to interfere in the first place we were at. Every other execution has ended fast enough that we didn't have to worry... Or, at least, everyone put up some kind of fight.
[ He sighs, wondering what exactly the trigger was for them showing up again. ]
He couldn't have known they would show up.
[ He sighs, wondering what exactly the trigger was for them showing up again. ]
He couldn't have known they would show up.
Maybe.
[Spike had assumed that was the rule, tbh.]
Death's not the end. Not here, anyway. That's just the smokescreen they want us to believe. [Except for Zieks. And maybe Rika.]
[Spike had assumed that was the rule, tbh.]
Death's not the end. Not here, anyway. That's just the smokescreen they want us to believe. [Except for Zieks. And maybe Rika.]
[ Yeah... the whole Zieks things sucks. For Rika, he's hoping that's not the case. ]
I know. People are working hard to get answers of how to change things. All I can hope is that we're getting close. We're losing too many people.
I know. People are working hard to get answers of how to change things. All I can hope is that we're getting close. We're losing too many people.
Figure we have to be, right?
Guess maybe we'll be here till we're down to a more interesting number like... five. But I'm optimistic that we're nearly there.
[He takes a big swig of his whiskey, emptying the glass.]
Guess maybe we'll be here till we're down to a more interesting number like... five. But I'm optimistic that we're nearly there.
[He takes a big swig of his whiskey, emptying the glass.]
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