[ Well, in the case, he reaches to get himself a glass for drinking, too, then sits. Whiskey... funny that, he had some a few weeks ago under better circumstances. But he pours himself a glass. ]
[At Kaeya, at Xie Lian, at whoever the fuck put a curse on him, or keeps putting curses on him the second he brings something up.] At least Kaeya's stupid martyrdom failed.
I understand what he wanted to do, but I also agree... that I'm glad it failed. I didn't want to see Rochalizo die, but the alternative would have been much worse.
I understand too. It's very basic, stupid and naive logic to follow.
[He sighs, dejected.]
I can't say I don't understand why he did it... I might have given my life if it was Alisaie. But it's so pointless and human, to want to die not for any practical purpose that might help, but just out of pure spite and pride.
Rochalizo wouldn't have survived either. All it would've ended with was both of them getting consumed by those disgusting smoke tentacles.
I guess everyone thought the Spectres were only going to interfere in the first place we were at. Every other execution has ended fast enough that we didn't have to worry... Or, at least, everyone put up some kind of fight.
[ He sighs, wondering what exactly the trigger was for them showing up again. ]
[ He pauses at that comment, thinking about how best to answer it. He takes in a slow breath before exhaling. ]
These last days have helped to ground me again. I know it seemed like I was losing my footing and sight on things. But I've realized things over the last few days that's actually made me firm up on my resolution.
I've seen too many people around me that have looked so lost lately and I don't want this place to break anyone. I can't let myself be brought down, either. When this is all over, I can face whatever scars this place has left on me, but now is not the time for that. Now is the time when we need to keep hope the most.
I truly believe that. They say it's always darkest right before dawn. So, I'm holding out for that.
You know, I don't tend to find myself in agreement with you heroic types and your powers of friendship and hope often, but that's definitely an outlook that the angels aren't prepared to combat.
I've met monsters like this before. They're certainly creative with their torture, but it helps to remember how feeble they must be to resort to any of this. The fact of the matter? By and large, we're stronger than them.
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How's it going, after all that?
[ He sure did see that punch happen, after all. ]
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I'm pretty furious.
[At Kaeya, at Xie Lian, at whoever the fuck put a curse on him, or keeps putting curses on him the second he brings something up.] At least Kaeya's stupid martyrdom failed.
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[He sighs, dejected.]
I can't say I don't understand why he did it... I might have given my life if it was Alisaie. But it's so pointless and human, to want to die not for any practical purpose that might help, but just out of pure spite and pride.
Rochalizo wouldn't have survived either. All it would've ended with was both of them getting consumed by those disgusting smoke tentacles.
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[ He sighs, wondering what exactly the trigger was for them showing up again. ]
He couldn't have known they would show up.
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[Spike had assumed that was the rule, tbh.]
Death's not the end. Not here, anyway. That's just the smokescreen they want us to believe. [Except for Zieks. And maybe Rika.]
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I know. People are working hard to get answers of how to change things. All I can hope is that we're getting close. We're losing too many people.
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Guess maybe we'll be here till we're down to a more interesting number like... five. But I'm optimistic that we're nearly there.
[He takes a big swig of his whiskey, emptying the glass.]
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Granted, I can't say I blame you.
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These last days have helped to ground me again. I know it seemed like I was losing my footing and sight on things. But I've realized things over the last few days that's actually made me firm up on my resolution.
I've seen too many people around me that have looked so lost lately and I don't want this place to break anyone. I can't let myself be brought down, either. When this is all over, I can face whatever scars this place has left on me, but now is not the time for that. Now is the time when we need to keep hope the most.
I truly believe that. They say it's always darkest right before dawn. So, I'm holding out for that.
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You know, I don't tend to find myself in agreement with you heroic types and your powers of friendship and hope often, but that's definitely an outlook that the angels aren't prepared to combat.
I've met monsters like this before. They're certainly creative with their torture, but it helps to remember how feeble they must be to resort to any of this. The fact of the matter? By and large, we're stronger than them.
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Let's hope we can rally enough to stand against this.