... You leave the people who love you to wonder if they could have done anything different. To feel helpless. To feel that they've failed. An unhealable wound.
… It isn’t the same. The intentions are different. We thought having one side win would lead to a poor situation to handle, much like how the dead have told us that either side winning would come with consequences.
Kim Dokja seemed to think evening numbers would give us time, a chance he was willing to take. Or at the very least, a confirmed Celestial death would mean one less Temporal death.
A foolish choice… I told him to wait until we had more information.
Of course. I will always fight to make sure I'm not leaving anyone behind... but if that isn't an option. What choice is even the right one there? Living with the regret knowing you failed to protect someone you love or leaving them with the memory that they died for you?
In most cases, you never know if you need sacrifice. It's merely perceptions and assessments of a situation, but that doesn't mean it's necessary or called for.
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[ He makes a motion to ask if he can sit by him for a few moments, if that's okay. ]
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Sacrifice only brings more sorrow.
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...I'm starting to learn that myself. That line's about him, then?
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[ It's too obvious to him that it's about Dokja. ]
His origin story's foundation is sacrifice.
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[ That sorrow ... ]
Is it really? Then it would make sense it's about him.
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[ TRAUMA ]
It is.
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[ Hearing this ... really puts some things in perspective. ]
Do you know why he did it this time?
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[ Sometimes you have too much experience with loss. ]
I can only guess based on something he said earlier. A Watcher told him that keeping the numbers close to each other would buy us time.
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[ He runs his hand through his hair, frowning deep. ]
...So what we were worried about. What we almost tried take care of ourselves.
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Kim Dokja seemed to think evening numbers would give us time, a chance he was willing to take. Or at the very least, a confirmed Celestial death would mean one less Temporal death.
A foolish choice… I told him to wait until we had more information.
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Even if you've been through things... I can't imagine that suffering is easy at all.
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Never consider such a thing for whatever situation you find yourself in.
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[ Imagine their trauma oof. ]
There should always be another choice, one without sacrifice.
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[ Ouch. ]
Of course. I will always fight to make sure I'm not leaving anyone behind... but if that isn't an option. What choice is even the right one there? Living with the regret knowing you failed to protect someone you love or leaving them with the memory that they died for you?
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You're not prophet, after all.
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Hard to do in the heat of the moment, but it's good to keep it in mind.